I like...

I like LONG WALKS.

today, i went home with iona tai tai and zihao...its was raining rather heavily and it was quite late in the evening already, i thought the weather suited my mood, i love the cool weather. i feel moody, unenthusiastic and dead today, stressed to a certain extent.

Zi hao's parting phrase to me was,"you are only a J1 and already sighing, what will happen in J2?", that left an impression, and spark a surge of thoughts and reflections in my mind. since journey home after that was pretty much a lonely affair, i had some quality time with myself:)

Though i may appear hyper and childish and happy everyday, it doesnt mean that i dont have days when i am simply down, perhaps merely from the lack of sleep, perhaps for some reasons that i cant tell you... someone once told me that i look angry when i am not smiling, someone once told me that i look sad, perhaps i am? ppl who know me well enough like couse=eileen can tell i guess... but i believe in not harping over bad stuff, what's done, is done, what's past, is past. So am i considered optimistic?

Sighing is a good way to relieve i the "burden" and relax all the tensed muscles, i feel; stress to a certain extent is self-imposed, i think i am stressing myself out! as in ME stress ME. sometimes, i get overly-affected by what others say or that i set too high a standard for myself, tis frustrating!

Am i self-centered? i dont know why my thoughts turn this way, but that was what happened. Has my world always revolved around I and not you or they or them? But if you dont care abt yourself, how can u care abt others? or perhaps i have just interpreted the meaning of self-centered wrongly...

my hands are seriously unstable! especially when i am nervous or scared or neither...after PE, during SPA...is my metabolism rate THAT high? then howcome i am still so fat?! hopefully i will lose some weight this year...or maybe i am suffering from some disease like HYPERTHYROIDISM or ALZHEIMER'S DISEASE?

hahas.....that's pretty much what i though abt on my long walk home frm the bus stop and the windy bus ride....(the bus wasnt air-conditioned)...okays, these are some thoughts that i have always thought abt when i am alone, i guess reflecting is good, in that it helps organise ur thoughts and helps u become a better person...

i would appreciate that u not infer anything from the above text:) Thanks.